It seems so strange...

My house is so quiet. Wils is playing quietly by himself. I'm sitting here on the sofa with my laptop watching my boy. There is definitely something missing. It's my baby girl. I hear no shrieking. I hear no "STOP IT WILS THAT'S MINE" I hear no "I love you, Mommy." It's just quiet. I wonder what she is doing right now, and what her job for today is. I wonder if she is using her manners and making new friends. I wonder if she is behaving. I wonder if she is having fun. I wonder if she misses me, like I am missing her. I wonder if she cried when I drove away, like I did. I wonder if she will be as excited to see me this afternoon as I will be to see her.

Today was Maegan's first day of preK. She went to preK last year (for three year olds), but it was at a different school. She did very well there. I'm pretty sure I cried last year, too. She's at a new school this year, and several of her classmates have parents that I went to school with. I know many of the teachers at this school. I live in the house that used to be occupied by the director of her new school. I should feel perfectly at ease. But it was not easy. Not at all. I made a big mistake by turning around and watching her walk into the school building. She was sporting sunglasses and had her tote bag on her shoulder. Her long blonde hair was just blowing in the breeze. She looked cool as a cucumber. She looked so grown up. She doesn't need me as much anymore... and that is a very difficult concept for this mommy. I like being needed and wanted.

I'm so proud of my baby girl. She's so smart. She's so funny. She's very personable. She's very upbeat. She's very enthusiastic. She's very thankful. She's very Maegan. There is no one on earth like my baby girl. She my first baby that made it into this world kicking and screaming. She is my pride and joy. She is a huge blessing in my life.

It's funny, as I type this, baby 3.0 is kicking away inside of me, as if to remind me that I have other children to be thankful for as well... and OH I am SO thankful for my babies. But Maegan will always be my first born. She will always have that special and unique position. Sometimes I wish she would slow down a little. Life moves so quickly. I don't want to miss a minute of her childhood.

I hope she is having a ball with her new class, teacher, and friends. She has turtles in her classroom. Maegan loves turtles. I know if she ever gets down, looking at those turtles should cheer her right up. I can't wait to go pick her up and find out how her day went. Only 2 hours to go!